Like most days. Today I am tired. I woke up feeling a bit under the weather. It seems something is going around work. I am trying not to catch it but my focus is more than lacking.
So yesterday was an interesting day. It was long and stressful and really it was last night. I have been struggling myself, but then add in my husband and things are just stressing me out way too much. Last night my husband got upset with me and honestly, it was unwarranted. I definitely felt blindsided by it and how he reacted afterward just has me feeling crummy.
So I woke up this morning and realized, dun dun dun, I forgot to post yesterday. I will make it up by posting twice today. I know it really isn’t a make up but at least it is something.
So today was a full day of house hunting as well as just running. We found some prospects and the perfect one, but it is just a dream. So I’m good with the choices we have and there are other options too. We will see what happens. I have some time. Not much but some.
A day without writing. I honestly almost forgot. Today and probably tomorrow this will be all you get. I hope Monday will be a bit slower and I can catch-up. I will be house hunting all day tomorrow. We will see what happens. It will be long but hopefully good. I need to write but I’m tired and annoyed and don’t feel like thinking. I will try to be a bit more articulate in the coming days. We shall see though.
Today is another late post. I will get it posted today but it might not be pretty or extensive. Today I went house hunting. The fear of home owning is big! I want a house but the fear of can I afford it.
Whoever said, “Life isn’t easy,” was telling the truth. It seems like every day there is something new. The whole idea of something new isn’t inherently bad, but lately that is how it has felt for me. I feel like peace is just right outside my grasp and I don’t know what I can do to find it. I know you can’t worry about things that you can’t change or that you just don’t know what will happen, but sometimes it is hard to get your mind to stop obsessing.
I know I just stole the title of a “Hamilton” song but that is what I life feels like right now. I love the musical too. It’s Sunday and another week is about to start. Another week of stress and worry. I wish time could just stand still. I am not of the time should stop to enjoy it but I want it to stop because I want to find a way to figure things out. I feel like I will never figure things out.
So my mind is racing. Did I say life would slow down? I must have been lying right? I feel like I was. I am trying to do stuff at home and then work is so busy. My boss is out for the rest of the week and then Friday is just me. I am looking forward to hopefully a bit of a rest.
So the internet goes out or the lights go out and it is like you just don’t know what to do with yourself. Our internet went out at work today and all the things I think I could do or should do, I realize that I can’t because we have no internet connection. You can’t read, send or receive emails, you can’t go online, for my job, means no ordering, updating vendors, and just nothing. It always makes you stop and wonder what was it like before. What was life without internet and power? Luckily, we still have power so it isn’t hot nor do I not have a computer at least to be on, but it seems so useless. This is the time when a computer just seems like a paperweight.