So I have been thinking about posting and yes I think maybe every day was a bit much. I think that I will definitely not post weekends at least not normally. I will post throughout the week, but weekends are to rest.
I am still not sure what I am doing with my Saturday but I have been putting off writing. The last few days my past has been on my mind and I am trying not to let that take over too much.
I the remembering and I hate the pain. I know that I need to heal and work through it but I will give it time. Despite wanting to do it overnight, I can’t. I have to take time and work through it. I need to start talking about it again in therapy. Small steps and we will see.
The other day I was thinking about living life to the fullest. Living life like it truly is, that you only have a short time. I understand why we can’t live everyday like we were dying, in the sense of picking up and just traveling. Logically I understand that, but there is still part of me that wishes that life could be that way. I wish that we could live life doing what we wanted to do. To just be able to get up and not have to worry about money or responsibilities. I wish that life could be that way.
Continue reading Trying to Live Life
Everybody wants to change the world
But one thing’s clear
No one ever wants to change themselves
~ “Do You Really Want It” by: Nothing More
So this band and these guys are awesome first and foremost. I have had the pleasure of seeing them love three times and look forward to many more. This song is on their most recent album. I just got to hear them preform this song live and beyond amazing. If you haven’t checked them out, you should.
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I feel like I don’t know what I’m doing. I went to therapy again and it felt hollow. I started going for abuse from my past and to deal with it but I wonder if I have. I feel like she doesn’t remember why I started coming but I guess that is my job. I know that therapy is what you make of it, but I don’t know what I want out of it. I have this just what’s the point feeling.
Continue reading Needing inspiration
It’s a long weekend and with all the chaos this week has brought. I might unplug a bit but here is a beautiful picture to share of the sun. Harvey took a toll on us so the sun was a beautiful site. Enjoy!
So I have been quite as I watch the chaos around me and my city. Texas has been hit hard and though I am lucky it is still hard to watch. I know people who have lost everything. There are those who lost their lives. Sadly the stories just keep on coming both good and bad.
I am proud to be part of this city and state. It has gone through a lot and there are things I want to say but being in the midst of it. I am still waiting for the dust to settle so to speak. I want to write and just typing this is good. I have found that focus has been hard the past few days. Hopefully that gets better.
Thanks for all the well wishes and thoughts that have come our way. For all of those working hard to make sure the city comes out on its feet. There is so much left to do. The coming weeks and months will be difficult for all. We must keep going.
A storm is coming to the Texas gulf coast. You would think it is the end of the world. People stocking up. We just got home from getting some stuff but man it was rough. We started at one place but no bread or water. No bread or water.
Continue reading Harvey!
Today we looked at houses again. We kind of are starting over where house hunting is concerned. I am ready to find one. Today I feel like we had some luck and one that I really liked. Our realtor said that we should check in tomorrow. We might make an offer.
I would love to get something going because then we could be closing on a house soon. I ready to close. I am ready to have a house. We will see what happens.
Stupid pre orders and stupid companies that don’t make enough of their products. Today the pre orders for the SNES classic went live. They came and went. It is just like Nintendo to put something out and screw everyone over. Why do we subject ourselves to it? We want to I guess.
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Should have posted Friday but I am visiting my mom this weekend. I am taking these two days off. I will pick up Monday. Eclipse day?! People are so weird. Anyway, just wanted to say a quick note. Hope everyone is having a great weekend!!